This month’s book selection for the From Left to Write book club was the stuff that never happened by Maddie Dawson. The premise is that are main character, Annabelle, must finally choose between the man she’s been married too for 26 years and the man that got away who’s she been carrying a torch for all along. I hate to spoil this book, but I will so tread cautiously and I will warn you before I do spoil the ending.
Though this book instantly had me thinking about the past, it actually got me thinking about it indirectly more than directly. You see my first paid writing gig was for a website called JamsBio. It was a website where people could write a memory associated with a song. You would choose a song and write a story about the memory associated with it. Read more
Most of you on Facebook may have noticed the retro thing going on with people’s profile pictures. Well considering how many dozens photo albums and picture boxes I have stocked full of millions of pictures, I thought it would be fun to pull out some old pictures, scan them and then tag all my old school friends. But instead I ended up spending an entire evening pouring through every single photo album and photo box I own.
I have pictures that of course begin with me as a baby, my childhood, teen years and into the years my husband and I were dating, our wedding and of course there were tons of both pregnancies and the kids all the way through now. My mind is kind of racing full of all the memories. It’s so weird to look back and see how much I’ve grown and changed. And even weirder to see how much the kids have grown and changed. I swear it was just yesterday that they were born. Then again I would’ve sworn that it was only yesterday that I got married or graduated high school…
There were so many pictures that just took me back. Friends and family that have long since passed away, friends that are still in my life today. So many people and so many memories.
Nothing puts your life into a sharper focus then looking back over your life in pictures. It reminds you of where you come from and who you are. It also reminded me of just how fast my babies are growing and that I should take time to slow down and smell the roses with them more often.
My dad took this picture when I was in elementary school. He told me to picture the woman I’d be when I was 30 and to say hi to that woman. And now here I am, 32, looking at that same picture, saying hi back to that girl I once was.
I never did scan any pictures and upload them to Facebook. Maybe tomorrow…
You know 10 years of marriage can take a toll on a couple. Money, kids, work, life, well the reality is they all drift in between you like a thick winter fog rolling in off the bay. And sometimes a couple can be right next to each other but life’s fog is so thick they can’t see each other. I think every marriage has those periods.
But then, one day out of the blue you look up and the fog has cleared. For a moment you’re not mom and dad. You’re not working or running or taking care of business. You’re just that couple.
That guy and that girl that once upon time touched hands for the very first time and felt flames of destiny race through your skin. You remember what it was like to first have him lean into to you and touch his lips to yours. And you remember.
And even as the fog begins to roll back in, the kids start grabbing at your leg, the phone starts to ring, and work beckons, you look at him. And you remember that even as life’s fog rolls in and you get caught up in the madness of every day life that all you have to do is reach out and he’s there. Always.
I heard this song today and it made me close my eyes and remember how much I love my husband.
Yea, cause I’m cheesy like that.